last night instead of going to bed
i went to the park to swing on the swings.
because sometimes i feel an emptiness that can only be filled with car windows rolled all the way down and a heart to heart with the moon.
& i've been listening to music that reminds me of gray days and heartbreak
and everything just feels a little off.
i don't know how to say it
but nothing i write ever feels good enough.
& i cant get his floppy hair and goofy smile off my mind
& can someone please tell me how to get over something that never even happened
& i don't mean to sound sad, because i'm usually not
but i'm not ready for my life that hasn't even begun
&
my heart has nostalgia for things that haven't even happened yet.
